Thursday, June 27, 2013

Over Coming Obstacles

Many of you know by now that I will be doing the Warrior Dash on August 3rd with my awesome friend Stacy!!  I am very excited about this journey because I have decided to raise money for St. Jude's Children's hospital in the process.  What most of you do not know is truly how physically hard this could be on me.  Let me tell you, if I had to run it today I would be lucky to come in under two hours - unless I end up skipping obstacles after many tries - but that is not my intention.  Let me try to paint a picture for you, but first, realize this is a picture I am truly only learning the layers to myself.

I am not even sure where to begin because I have been only given fragments of pieces myself.  The first piece I can remember being revealed is when I went for speech therapy in the 9th grade.  I had nodules on my vocal cords that the doctor felt therapy could help.  I already had surgery on my vocal cords when I was only 5 years old so I have a raspy voice because of it.  More surgery would mean more scarring to the vocal cords and an even further change in my voice.  Anyway, during speech therapy I was told I do not breathe correctly, only using the top third of my lungs completely and the middle section only somewhat.  The muscles around the deepest valves to my lungs are shriveled up doing nothing.  At the time I did some vocal exercises and breathing exercises for awhile, which help enough to wear down the size of my nodules and no surgery was needed.  I was encouraged to keep on with the breathing exercises so that my muscles would not return to their shrivel status, but in a short time they were forgotten.

When I was 18 years old I joined a gym.  I was a decent weight for my height, mostly because I was on my own and did not eat much of anything.  I was only about 125 lbs. back then.  I remember having a free fitness test done and it was commented on how very low my muscle tone was.  Joining another gym when I was 20 years old, and still then, I was again told my muscles tone to fat ratio was way off balance for my weight.  I never had money for a personal trainer so I never really understood what this meant and quickly forgot about it.

Last year in April I joined group training with a personal trainer.  This is the YMCA’s program to gives you the benefit of a personal trainer at a lower cost.  When I went through my personal set up with weight, measurements and the whole deal, I also got this machine which read my body fat percentage.  While my BMI was in the overweight category, this machine showed I had such little muscle that I was actually in the obese category.


In May of last year, seeing my new primary care doctor and trying to get the medication I liked best for my ADD, she insisted I have an EKG done first.  Well, she did not like the pattern in my EKG and sent me to a cardiologist.  My cardiologist was very impressed that my doctor even caught the glitch in my heartbeat.  It is there, but my heartbeat looks the exact same every time.  It is an always present imperfect pattern.  It ended up being diagnosed as a short PR (pulmonary rate).  Really he said it is Wolff–Parkinson–White syndrome (WPW) but he will not put that on my file because it tends to freak other doctors out.  The good news that I am asymptomatic – not showing any symptoms.  After doing a stress test and getting my heart rate up over 200 beats per minute, my doctor noted how much better my heart and lungs performed after the stress test than prior to it.  So what I am supposed to do is get my heart rate over 85% of max almost daily to keep my health up and stay asymptomatic. 

 

I have attempted many times to start exercise programs, and have always come up short.  I get so tired, so exhausted, that when I begin an exercise program I usually come home and want to sit for hours and do nothing.  Actually, anytime I do anything for a couple of hours, even running errands, I come home exhausted and want to sit and do nothing. 

 

I recently joined a class at Running Fit in Ann Arbor called “Running 101.”  Having the class made me accountable.  The first week I wanted to quit so many times.  I sit on the pavement and nearly cry.  My muscles lock up and I have to stop and stretch them out often.  Having this class and having to push myself beyond where I normally give up, I have realized how much the lack of oxygen and low muscle development effect me.  The good news is by the start of week two I was feeling so much better!!  Instead of constantly being exhausted and wanting to sit around, I was actually getting some energy after I exercised 5 of 7 days. 

 

Then I took two days off and it was like starting over.  I was mentally reminded that I have to be consistent with my exercising and breathing or my muscles go right back to where they have always been.  Maybe after months of building up my muscles I will be able to take a couple of days off, but not now. They are a shriveled up mass and want to stay that way.

 

Of course right when I started to do well I have been hit with a yucky virus.  Sinus infection, coughing, the runs (and not the running I should be doing) and it has gone on and on… I have not run in five days now.  It once again will be like starting over.  I am really bummed to have missed the week three class too!!  It was the best one on stretches!  So when it comes to my fitness, I feel like I am constantly over coming hurdles.  But I know for my overall health, and to keep my WPW asymptomatic, it will be worth it to constantly fight them. 

 

So I have this crazy race, this “Warrior Dash” scheduled only five weeks from now.  I have a long way to go on building up some arm strength if I want to be able to pull myself up or pull up a friend on any of those obstacles!  But I finally realize that if I give myself just 20 minutes a day, and get past the first week, I will get the energy I need to keep going.  I am just not sure how to deal with getting sick and I surely need to get better before I can truly restart now!



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